Grumpy Me and 5 Good Things

It's strange. Everytime my life perks up a little bit, there's always something to bring me back down to reality, hard. It's not that I'm not grateful for the things i have or the people that surround me. Believe me, I am. If it weren't for the people in my life right now, I'd be a quivering ball of nothing.

I guess I'm just frustrated. Yesterday my parents were on my case again (and I suppose I'll admit I had it coming) about finishing school. I know they're worried about me, but somehow I don't think "She must have set some kind of record by now, being smart and yet managing to finish nothing" are the most encouraging words I've ever heard. I'm also pretty sure that at this point, my dad has just about given up on me. He basically told me to stop wasting my money, take whatever low paying job I can find and just work full time. I'm not going to lie, I've considered it a lot recently. I've been searching as well. At this point, I've temporarily resigned myself to having to take up a full time job as a receptionist just to survive.

Again, I know my parents love me and are concerned about me, but I wish they would stop pointing out that every other cousin/sibling I have all have degrees and are getting their master's and PhD's. I GET IT. I AM THE STUPID ONE. I'VE ALREADY COME TO ACCEPT IT (well, okay. Not really.)

I'll survive. This shall be my temporary mantra.

Anyway, because I need to perk myself up a bit, here's a list of 5 good things in my life right now:

-my family-because I know they love me
-my boyfriend (Tony)-because he keeps me sane <3 (or relatively sane).
-my friends=awesome
-my digital photography class-the prof is awesome, the class is fun and hands on, and we have a lot of laughs. Seriously, the prof is awesome. Who else could make 45 minutes of taking pictures of a wall fun?
-the fifth thing...hmm...I know there must be one...Sleep. Because I can escape from my problems and stresses for a little while (and yes, I know, that it isn't really healthy to try and avoid a problem by sleeping).

Mich

Photography Internship

This was supposed to be a happy blog post. And maybe it still will be. I don't know. I'm questioning a lot of things tonight, which is likely why I'm not asleep at just after 2 a.m. I shouldn't really say questioning. Thinking is really more the word. I'm just amazed at how within a few hours, my mood has shifted from completely overjoyed and bouncy to brooding and upset. I'm typing this in the dark and as softly as possible because the last thing I need is my parents to wake up and come to my room to find out why I'm still awake. I'm not really in the mood to explain why I'm crying over my keyboard right now.

So I'll move on, turn this into the "happy" post it's supposed to be. I found out on Wednesday that I got a photography internship position at the Gladstone Hotel in Toronto. And I am super thrilled. I applied for it in July, but after a month of not hearing from the guy, I figured it had gone to other people and moved on. So imagine my surprise when I checked my email on Tuesday and the man had sent an e-mail to many of the applicants stating that it had been a busy summer of events at the hotel and he was only now getting things organized for the fall. He asked if anyone is still interested.

Of course I e-mailed him back that I'm interested. He responded to me on Wednesday that he'd like me to start as soon as possible. I'm meeting him for lunch on Tuesday to finish setting everything up and I start right after that :D It's only 8 hours a week approximately (covering a 4-6 hour event and then editing and posting the photos) but it's good experience and can be used as a portfolio.

Okay. That's as happy as this post is getting. More later, for now I'm going to try and sleep. Or at least play my DS.